Saying bye and being present. So much to do and lots of apprehensions

Saying Bye and being present. So much to do and lots of apprehensions. Fitting it all in and not being present how is the right way to handle this? How do you say goodbye to those you love for potentially a year? How do you let them know how much you care? A lot can change in a year-its hard to stay deeply connected. I know I am so lucky-I am loved a lot! Yet in some ways that makes it harder to go. The last few days have been hard. Trying to fit in everything I need to do before the move and yet trying to enjoy myself here with everyone as well. Sometimes making sure I get it all done before I leave feels as if I am setting up to leave forever. I want to be prepared but I do not want to bring too much stuff( like I usually do). I want to try and follow the aspects of simple living, but it can be hard. The last week has been fun and stressful with all of these things and pressure running through my head. Also apprehensions of being homesick and not being able to handle the work. Thinking about my future roommates and future friends and wanting to get along. Also, Getting lost and not having a cell phone. A cell phone? it sounds so stupid. A few years ago I didn't even have one and now I am dependent on it? Man maybe its good mine most likely wont work down there. Talking with Linds last night I was saying how it felt like I was saying bye for a year or forever when its weird I could just call or email people. She smartly deducted that its simply because I wont have cell service so its foreign to us. That's crazy! As this week is coming to a close and I have slowly started to begin packing I am starting to find some peace amidst the whirlwind. Ultimately I know these are fears and struggles right now, but KY is where I am supposed to be for now, and some how things will work out. So bear with me as I figure it all out...


I also heard this song on the radio and it really seemed to fit right now:
Francesca Battistelli Lyrics –
I’m Letting Go Lyrics
My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge
Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back
Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace
The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me